gvallee Posted February 22 Share Posted February 22 55 minutes ago, cbimages said: It can a bit much sometimes, but I am still here, and still managing on over the counter meds - panadol. Still doing what I can. Seems I can tolerate pain pretty well. Right shoulder done for. 5 cancer surgeries, no lymph nodes underarm and many gone under collarbone too, lots of muscle gone (boobs long gone of course). You can fit a fist into the hole in my chest, it's not pretty. Also a full course of "normal" breast cancer radiation followed by another course of "intense" radiation therapy to try to kill off the cancer that had broken through my chest and back. The scarring is awful, bigger than a dinner plate. It hurts. And recently left shoulder given up. I'm left handed, Recent x-ray & ultrasound show severe degenerative changes, osteoarthritis, tendonitis and bursitis. I broke a rib last year, oncologist told me it showed on a scan, asked was I sore. I said yes, hard to hang clothes on the line and make the bed, figured something not right. We're off to Bali end of next week for 2 months diving. May be the last trip though, cancer meds failing. Told to go "now while you can". I told oncologist to "find something else to keep me going". I will not give up. Hubby turns 83 in August, he's overweight and has a metal hip and knee. He still dives. He will not give up either. I'm going to speak for myself here. I've had different agendas at different stages of my life. As a teenager, it was going out and having fun with friends, escaping through my bedroom window to go disco, makeup, clothes, boyfriends, music.At 20 something, it was married life and motherhood. At 30 something, it was discovering the world, exciting solo life based around travel and adventurous friends.At 40 something, it was solo daring, sometimes downright dangerous exciting foreign adventures. From 50 onwards, passions were solidly established as travel and photography.Right now, my lowest priority is what I look like. I wear hearing aids. When I ordered them, I was told they came in two colours: silver and gold. The lady told me 'because of the colour of your hair, perhaps gold would be more discreet'. I burst out laughing. I couldn't care less about people noticing.I recently had something removed under my eye. 5 stitches. Was I going to get a scar? Am I running for a Vogue cover? Didn't care.The most important thing at this point of my life is to have fun, be happy, get the adrenaline and enthusiasm flowing. And laughter.You are brave beyond words Carol and have the right attitude. I wish you lots of happiness with your diving in Bali. 2 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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